This Must Be How Marilyn Munroe Felt..

Today marks the 50th anniversary of the death of Marilyn Munroe. The beautifull woman who paved the way for strong, independent women around the world. I did not start to appreciate the wise words of Marilyn until i was at least 21, thus being the time i needed to hear them the most. We all have our struggles as independent woman – even Marilyn Munroe. Unfortunately, although Marilyn was wise she succomed to the enemy within all women “insecurity”, a troubled mind leads to distruction. In her case death. She battled addiction, health and relationship issues which imcluded three divorces and died of an overdose at age 36 in 1962.

As a woman i too have that need to be respected, that urge to succeed, that anxiety that comes from expectations and dissapointment from failing to the joy of men. I cant help but think “this must have been how Marilyn Munroe felt”

We need to always remember “that we CAN do anything” and “though we may be beautifull; underneath the makeup, perfectly positioned hair and 6inch heels we ARE intelligent”. We are Superwoman.

I will forever be in her debt for teaching me courage and strength through her words. xx

A simple quote spoken by a wise woman could lift your spirits; as it does mine. Below are my favorites.

“Well behaved women rarely make history”

“Women who seek to be equal with men lack ambition.”

“I don’t mind living in a man’s world, as long as I can be a woman in it.”

“I don’t want to be rich, I just want to be loved.”

“A wise girl kisses but doesn’t love, listens but doesn’t believe, and leaves before she is left”

“I restore myself when I’m alone.”

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so you can appreciate them when they’re right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together”


Music Therapy

We all have that song that makes us stop and think about love, life and everything in between, well Drakes -Marvins Room will always be “that song” for me. The dark sound, soul deep lyrics, melody and phone coversation gets me everytime. I remember when Marvins Room was released, i had spent the night alone which like other lonely nights resulted in me listening to Drake’s “i feel your pain” music. I listened to this song and before the chorus even started i was in tears. The lyrical articulation that is put into Marvins Room is incredible; they way one can describe the feeling of having everybody around but having no-one there is something that hits hard. The undenying need that he has for this Woman, the desperate phone conversation and faded love story all come together to create a dark and lonely song.

Perfectly collaberated lines that hit a womans heart and make her stop and think – are these lyrics about me? Should i be here? Why am i alone? are the reasons why this became a youtube remake hit with stars such as Chris Brown, Teyanna Taylor, Joelle James, Lil Wayne and JoJo all Covering the song. This makes it apparent that we all were touched in some way by Sound and Lyrics. With killer lines like these:

“Talk to me please, don’t have much to believe in, I need you right now, are you down to listen to me?”

“I’m just sayin’ you could do better
Tell me have you heard that lately?”

“I’m lucky that you picked up
Lucky that you stayed on
I need someone to put this weight on”

So in those times of need I suggest you mellow out with the sweet sound of your favorite songs, when there’s no one around the words spoken by a stranger can change your life.

Listen/watch Drake – Marvins Room Official Video Here.

<a href="http://Drake ~ Marvins Room (Official Video)“>watch here



Transformation Vs Change

…But that is not the point. Where have you lost your truth? Where have you lost your being? Where have you lost your God? Where have you lost your happiness, your bliss? Better it will be before you go to the infinte maze of the outside world, better it will be to first look within. If you cannot find there then it is all right — you go and search outside. But that has never happened. Whoever has looked within has always found — because it is already there — only a look is needed, a conversion, a returning of consciousness. Just a deep look.”

Source – Osho Book “”Tao : The Three Treasures, Vol3″

City Lights

City Life. I love.

Recently My Brother, The Girls and I, spent four days in Auckland. New Zealands “big Little City”. A truly epic four days!. The purpose was to go to the David Guetta Concert which was Amazing with a Capital A. We stayed in an amazing Apartment with views out over the city, the sky tower and within walking distance to the Local bottle store, bars and shopping. The following places are where I Dined, Danced & destroyed. I highly recommend each & every one of these locations with my top 2 being Lenin, The carpark and crystal lounge bar. There also also pictures of each location. Next time your in Auckland make sure you pay a visit. You won’t regret it.

Cafe – Ponsonby Road Bistro

SkyCity Auckland

Soul bar a Bistro

Lenin bar

Brew on Quay

Crystal Lounge Bar – (Gorgeous Women and elegant décor)

The Carpark

No1 High St – (Got in to the Official David Guetta After Party ‘high five’)

Basement bar

Cassette No9




Some random hip Hop Bar underground – Where everyone and I mean Everyone was Douging to “teach me how to Dougie”

Next time, “The Drake” and “X.O”

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Rihanna – Rude Boy Shorts

Hey guys. I have received alot of interest in my remake of the “Rude Boy Rasta Shorts”

So basically, I can’t sew naturally luckily its not something you need to be taught its really about logic.

What you will need is the following:

– One Pair of High wasted Shorts. Whether they be Bike Shorts, Jean shorts, High wasted Briefs; its up to you. So long as you can sew on them.

– A sewing Machine (you cannot hand sew this)

– Cotton (of Course)

– About 20cms of Velcro (both sides)

– Curtain/Material Trim. In Green, Red, and Yellow.

Please note: I couldn’t find any of these colors in my City. So I purchased White trim and Dyed them with Material Dye. BUT. If you do this remember Normal cold wash dye wont take to Polyester. You will need the natural dye that is suitable for polyester.

From here it’s back to logic. The Material comes in strips so you just sew the top of the material all the way around the shorts. From Top to Bottom. I used 2 strips of each color leaving approx 2 inches between the sewing to cover gaps. If you have a zip on your shorts… stop sewing at the point of the zip or button etc here is where you use the Velcro. When you finish the sew leave almost like a flap about 10 Cm’s in length so you can open and close your Shorts. Cut a piece of Velcro and sew it to the other side of the short and the one on the Trim then you can open and close this when you need to and it fits with the rest of the outfit. (Rather than having a gap where your zip is)

These are not the best instructions however this is just how I made mine. =) Good Luck… please check out pics below. Feel free to comment if you having any questions.







Lust vs Love

I see so many people completely confused between the two. Love is the most abused word in the dictionary. Lust can cause confusion and destruction in all of our lives. All the time I hear people say, “I am in love.” When in reality, it is not love at all. Sometimes it’s infatuation. Other times it’s nothing more than raw lust. There are times I want to say “Don’t call it love because it’s not!” don’t say I love you because you don’t!

So really think with me… Although love is not the easiest to determine we all learn something in our years of existence right? Id love to help clear up a lot of confusion and save you from a lot of pain but, to be honest if you tell yourself your in love then eventually you will talk yourself out of denying that it quite possibly isn’t? For peace of mind we all must reevaluate.. Which leads me to this – Definition of Lust.

Lust literally means over desire.
So what is lust? It is when you take something that is good, twist it, and add awesome stuff to it until you are consumed with what you want to have.When we speak of lust as it relates to relationships with the opposite sex, it can be put this way – when a person’s body or presence is far more important than their soul.

A good Definition I’ve heard is this:

“Lust is selfishly dwelling on and fantasizing about sexual activities or entertaining sexually arousing thoughts with disregard of the other person’s feelings. Love doesn’t lust.”


Is nothing like love
Comes quickly and leaves quickly.
Only wants to get into bed with you.
Is a craving for self gratification, usually sexual.
Focuses only on the outward appearance.
Is impatient.
Is rude and manipulates.
Seeks to get and never give.
Doesn’t care about others.
Is jealous and insecure.
Seeks revenge and doesn’t forgive.
Covers up and lies about wrongdoings.
Will do whatever it wants to get its way.
Leaves when it’s no longer getting.

Every person who has ever dated or lived has struggled with lust. If you haven’t yet, you will. So il leave you with this.

Have you ever thought you loved someone but realized it was only lust?

We live and we learn.